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6'3", brown hair and hazel eyes...
A fan of many types of music and many types of pro wrestling...
A lover of literature and the use of prose to change and empower the world...
Can see the beauty of nature and the horrors of humanity (and vice versa)...


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Dec 24, 2003
Response to a letter...

This was posted in my private message inbox on stephenkingshop.com.

How are you? I would like us to know each other. Because i intend to write books. I noticed that you are a book writer. I consider Stephen King as my idole. Because i would like to be a successful author like him. He really inspires me to write. He is the dream to be. Paul ,can you tell me from your experience. What 's the secret behind writing a novel?

Here is my response:

Hi Gregory,
     The secret to writing a novel... That's a tough question to answer.  I believe that if a person wants to write a novel, he or she must have something profound to say about this human experience.  We must examine ourselves through our craft because it allows us to learn and to grow.
     The aspiring novelist must love the job 24/7, and he or she must be prepared to get down and dirty in the trenches with their characters.  One cannot be a fairweather writer because oftentimes the weather isn't very fair.
     I also admire Stephen King.  I believe that his works are among the best this modern world has to offer.  He has used his medium to do just what I mentioned above: say something profound about this human experience.  I just finished reading [u] Carrie[/u] for the second time, and it really made me think about how horribly humans can treat each other.  There are people like the high school students who tease and torture Carrie in our world who do the same day in and day out.  There are many like Carrie who wish to escape such a miserable experience.  There are some who wish for powers such as those possessed by Carrie so that they can exact revenge in ways like those carried out by Carrie.  We live in a world that can be terrible at times, but it isn't terrible all the time and I believe King acknowledges that in his works.
     I respect King for what he has accomplished, for what he has done for the literary world, and for being himself and not letting society influence the direction of his career.  I'd like to have his level of fame, but I'd be happy just to be able to say that I accomplished the above, as well.
     It's nice to meet you, Gregory.  I hope we can chat more often, and I hope this forum takes off in the future.
Merry Christmas,
Paul Silence

Posted at 11:23 am by paulsilence
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Dec 16, 2003
Plotting, Planning, and Such

Today, I completed a detailed plot outline for the first two chapters of my debut novel.  I am so amazed at the way these characters have come to life, and how they seem to interact completely fluidly with each other.  The fictional world of this story is getting richer and richer with each idea, thought, and detail that enters my mind. 

I am so in love with this story because of its incredible level of realism. 

I never thought that I could come up with a series of ideas that could possibly gel, but I think I may be onto something here.  I hope that I have the skills necessary to bring it to total fruition.

Lately, I have been dealing with the issues that have been preventing me from focusing on the jobs and projects that I want to complete.  I am happy to say that I have put everything into perspective, and have been able to persuade myself to look beyond the temporary for the things that are important for the future.  I am thankful for the special people in my life, and I am happy that I have the freedom to pursue my dreams in relative peace.

As this year creeps ever closer to its inevitable end, I look back at this year as one that tested my endurance levels.  Some of these tests were positive, while others were negative.  I saw my mom finally leave my stepdad, I found myself questioning my future and the path I've chosen to reach it, and I saw the birth of my wonderful nephew.  I look back now and I see it all as a growth experience.  I left writing and came running back.  I moved twice in less than a week.  I made up with my mom.  I changed my major and minor four times.  Through it all, the one constant has to be my relationship with my fiancee, Carol.  She is my foundation, without a doubt.  What a year 2003 turned out to be!

I hope that 2004 is amazing on so many levels.  I can't wait to see what's in store.
End of rant

In other news:  I picked up some new cds for Christmas the other day, and I must say that I wasn't disappointed by any of my picks.  Avenged Sevenfold's "Waking the Fallen" album is great.  A7X's sound combines the best of 80s metal melodies with the best of today's hardXcore.  I also got Jerry Cantrell's "Degradation Trip Vols. 1 and 2."  I had been putting off buying this one for a long time because I wasn't a big fan of his first solo record, "Boggy Depot."  I was pleased to hear him embrace the AIC sound he helped create.  It's a damned good album.  Also, I got Good Riddance's latest, "Bound by Ties of Blood and Affection."  While I do love it, it isn't anything too revolutionary in terms of evolution away from the GR sound.  I recommend it, though.

Posted at 03:42 pm by paulsilence
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Dec 3, 2003
Ethics? You want my view on ethics?

     I've spent a lot of time trying to decipher my view on the question of whether a universal ethical code exists in this world.  I've taken the position of absolutist, relativist; hell, even nihilist.  My conclusions are as follows.

     I don't believe that a single universal ethical law exists in this world.  Many people may agree on one thing, but even these people forsake this belief in certain circumstances.  Most people feel that killing is wrong, but few waste even a moment in offering exceptions to this rule.  I believe that this extends to all other "Strict codes" as well: stealing, lying, sexual behavior, etc.  I believe that the term "ethical absolutist" exists to distinguish those who would like to feel superior to those who are not a part of their group.

     I also believe that the term "ethical relativist" exists for those people too timid to tell others that the way they conduct themselves is wrong.

     How can I believe that a universal code of ethics exists even in this country when murder, rape, incest, hate, violence, television, greed, envy, chemical weapons, nuclear weapons, war, big hair, and reality entertainment exist?  I believe that only one universal ethical law exists, and it says, "Me before you, and screw you, too."

I guess I'm a nihilist.

Posted at 07:11 pm by paulsilence
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Nov 28, 2003
New blog...

     Well, I guess I'm at it again.  For the second time in my 22-year-old life, I have started an online journal.  I suppose I'll fill it with life events, observations, ideas, and so on.  I hope that my readers will appreciate the words I put down on this blog, and I hope it will help me in the same way that other methods of recording my life do. 

     Here's to new horizons and to celebrating life as it happens.

Posted at 11:24 pm by paulsilence
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